“She is sleeping peacefully, next to me. Her face, her innocent face is the window to her soul. You can see the ignorance and peace which tags along on her face.”
Everything is so different now. I used to be a rational man with an clear vision but now, now I am confused at times. Should I sound? Should I echo? But contemplating eats me up from within and these walls, my only companion except her, are shy. They never speak back.
I wonder how difficult is it to let a man and his girl be in peace all by themselves but this society! This godforsaken society just wouldn’t back down. Trying to break us down, trying to do us apart. See, how stupid I am! I have been staring at her for a while and thinking about everything, everyone, but her. I guess at times, we pretend to think on one and actually think everything else!
“Our love will prevail, right dear ? You almost left me once, so do you promise you will never leave me again like that, ever?So many questions, right? Shit, I am crying now and even you are up now, staring back at me with those sleepy, happy eyes. No, no, no. don’t cry. No more questions for my baby. See, no tears. I am smiling now. Yeah, smile with me. You need not answer all the questions! You can just laugh and laugh again.”
Thoughts- they do what we don’t ask for. While I am laughing and playing with her little fingers and chubby cheeks, hearing her laugh, I have realized that I knew it! That I don’t know! I pretend sometimes that I am indifferent but I just don’t know what life will be without her or would have been without her? What if she had left me with her mother ? What if her mother had decided to give in to the society’s wishes to having a son? it’s terrifying but in the past now..
So Yes. I am crying and Let me cry my baby, for these tears are of joy.
Let while be forever and I will hold you for a while,
I will shower you with all there is and you? You just smile, smile and smile………….”